The last thing you said was you’re so fucking disappointed in me . Well I have more the right to be disappointed in you . You created a whole family fight for no reason . You failed me as a friend and as a cousin . You left me and everyone close to you in tears . I can’t describe how much it hurts . I lie here and look at the empty bed beside me and think of where we all went wrong and why i have to be here writing this right now .. I can’t sleep because to be honest my heart is broken . I love you , I want to be fine with you but I should’ve known this would happen at some point . You got your way once again and you left with no remorse for what you did . You deleted me Facebook too , your own cousin , the one who did nothing wrong to you . When did you ever stop to think about what you did ? What was done was done and you marched back in that house and screamed hurtful words at us all . It’s hard to forgive someone who does that but I do forgive you because that’s what family does .. I feel let down . I feel sad . I feel hurt . I feel broken .. once again someone else walks out of my life . I know I’m not perfect but that doesn’t mean you are or your actions were right . I miss you . I wish you’d come back . I wish I could go back . I wish I could rewind this night . I wish you’d feel the hurt that I feel right now but you don’t care , you never did care about anyone but yourself . You’re selfish and you always will be .. So I guess we won’t all get to be together again , not together because of your words and your actions and While you sleep in your little hotel room happy to go home , I know I’m not the only one lying in bed trying to get it out of my head . Never down the road did I see us here .. No one did . I knew this would happen but I didn’t know it would go this far . You flipped this whole family upside down , but all that matters to you is that you got your way . So I hope you’re happy .
