I`ve been happy for quite some time now , but i feel like the sadness creeps back somedays , that scares the shit out of me , i can`t go back to who i was . That was someone i never want to be again . I`m trying to smile through the pain but people make it so hard , I can`t go just one day without getting put down . One day , thats all I ask , just one day I wanna feel like people care , like my mom cares , like there isnt anyone talking behind my back . I miss my mom , everyday . I wish she would come back to me, i never cherished the time we spent as a family , i regret that so much ..